well, weird things floating in my mind. I don't know why?
I am feeling as if I'm ruined, my creativity has lost somewhere.
I believing this *cause in past I's feeling that I'm creative. I don't know why and how I was saying and believing this, but believe me I was like this and that. By this and that, I am I was clever, intelligent, creative, handsome-I never was handsome. I was shy kinda bullshit. Was searching negative things in myself like I won't b able to speak to a crowd, this is what I did in my college and university, addressed people from all part of life, like engineers, doctors and blah blah.
I never hesitate in front of them. so why I was thinking like this. **sigh** damn on me.
Where that courage sneaked into me at that time, I guess someone was helping me. Someone special for whom I was working at that time.:)
And then I came to this bloody IT field. Its not that I didn't fall in love with it, but question now is why did this happen to me. I must have gone somewhere else and have done something else, something extraordinary. gash... just ruined myself. nothing in the field, money.... yeah you can have some bucks... bucks are not all that give you satisfaction. you don't believe.. don't but think in reality, give some serious thought and I am sure you will get agree with me one day for some movement atleast... If you still don't, go to he**.What..... why are you thinking like this. I didn't say hell, be positive.
Well in my entire life I try to be perfect one, a person that get everything, learn everything.... I ruined my life for becoming a good person... or I was trying to be seen as good person ... I controlled my emotions in front of other, I didn't shade tears in front of other showing them how much courage I have....bullshit.... I don't have the courage to face my own life, the realities I am facing....
Well, If you don't want to pass through all these weird things that I went through, just free your mind...give some peace to yourself, leave yourself relaxed... don't care of others and fully express yourself... don't think what other think of you.... think of yourself... what you like, and what not...If you feel that person in front of you need to be slapped for some inappropriate and unacceptable behavior, slap... and see how much amusement it gonna give you...believe me you would be happy at the end of the day and the person you slap would be happy too.
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Monday, December 28, 2009
Some realities
Today my beloved country Pakistan is facing lot of challenges. I am not going to discuss each challenge, but instead want to shade some light on few important things.
Way back our beloved Prophet Muhammad(SAW) emphases the importance of education. I don't think I need to write hadith in education importance coz a child even know those hadith. We always recite those in front of other to show how important those hadith and education is for us, but the fact is we don't know or don't try to understand them. The reality is that We have never given importance to education. We only get degrees in order to find high salaried job. We remember hadith only to show other that how much knowledge we have about our religion. When you try to get education only for having a job then the education you get only give you job, nothing else. The real aim of education is to become a good human being, to understand your own and other rights, to understand and use your own role in the society and stress other to use their role for the betterment of the society. We even use our religion where it benefits us, never try to follow its teachings. We blame each other some time bases on language and most of the time coz of religious affiliations. Most of us believe that If a person next to us is not following what I follow, even if the difference is very small. then we have every right to resist him, even take his life. how insane?
I wrote the above passage to tell you how stupid we are, try to deceive ourselves.
Okay, let me tell you about another stupidity we did and know bearing its fruits. Back in 80's a dictator ruled us, he leveled everything, our religion, our dignity, honor and modesty. I am talking about Zia, he who pushed us in darkness. In the name of religion(Jihad) terrorists were brought from different countries. This was never possible without the help of American and Saudi Arabia, history know it better. These terrorist were trained in Tribal Areas and then sent to Afghanistan for Jihad against then soviet union. They were given everything from weapons to money and were given free hand to do whatever thy like once soviet union left the country. I know how many people (Innocent) they kill in Afghanistan after getting control of the country. That was nothing else than sectarian violence; a more organized one. If you don't believe me than you better read the history of the initial days of Taliban government. When they were killing shias in different provinces of Afghanistan then nobody spoke about that, coz many were believing that they are doing good, killing shias is a sacred task. I even know that when they came to Orakzai Agency(Tribal Area) and started killing shias, majority of people support them. The situation is now completely different. They have now killed people from almost all sects.
Allah destroy even those who don't raise voice against cruelty. this is what happened with our Pakistan.
People didn't raise their voice against those terrorists at that time, believing that they'll never threat them. They didn't know that those terrorist were brought, feed and trained by our Army and had become wolf that can even bite their master, proven now.
The most disgusting thing is that people in this country still believe that those brutal people are doing everything according to sharia, at least a group of people believe this as they haven't seen the real faces of those bloody bustards. As I grew up in Tribal Area so I have seen everything.
what is the solution to this issue.
If I claim that I know about all these stupid things happening, then I should have a solution to this problem.
They only way these terrorist can be defeated is that we respect each other, each other religion, from religion I mean sects. This isn't difficult to respect each other as We all believe in One God, that Muhammad(SAW) is his last prophet and Quran is his book.
As Allama Iqbal(ra) said
Munfaat ek hai is qom ki nuqsan b ek
ek he sab ka nabi deen b Eman b ek
haram pak b Allah b Quran b ek
Kuch bari bat the hotay jo Muslman b ek
We should accept that shias and sunnis are living in this country and we are brother. We believe in same religion, so what to fight about. We should clearly understand that whoever try to or is trying to seperate us and make us fight each other are our real enemies. As long as they sheeps are present in our society we face the same danger time and again.
So please work for the unity of the nation. If we din't get united we all will destroy as we have already lost our dignity.
Way back our beloved Prophet Muhammad(SAW) emphases the importance of education. I don't think I need to write hadith in education importance coz a child even know those hadith. We always recite those in front of other to show how important those hadith and education is for us, but the fact is we don't know or don't try to understand them. The reality is that We have never given importance to education. We only get degrees in order to find high salaried job. We remember hadith only to show other that how much knowledge we have about our religion. When you try to get education only for having a job then the education you get only give you job, nothing else. The real aim of education is to become a good human being, to understand your own and other rights, to understand and use your own role in the society and stress other to use their role for the betterment of the society. We even use our religion where it benefits us, never try to follow its teachings. We blame each other some time bases on language and most of the time coz of religious affiliations. Most of us believe that If a person next to us is not following what I follow, even if the difference is very small. then we have every right to resist him, even take his life. how insane?
I wrote the above passage to tell you how stupid we are, try to deceive ourselves.
Okay, let me tell you about another stupidity we did and know bearing its fruits. Back in 80's a dictator ruled us, he leveled everything, our religion, our dignity, honor and modesty. I am talking about Zia, he who pushed us in darkness. In the name of religion(Jihad) terrorists were brought from different countries. This was never possible without the help of American and Saudi Arabia, history know it better. These terrorist were trained in Tribal Areas and then sent to Afghanistan for Jihad against then soviet union. They were given everything from weapons to money and were given free hand to do whatever thy like once soviet union left the country. I know how many people (Innocent) they kill in Afghanistan after getting control of the country. That was nothing else than sectarian violence; a more organized one. If you don't believe me than you better read the history of the initial days of Taliban government. When they were killing shias in different provinces of Afghanistan then nobody spoke about that, coz many were believing that they are doing good, killing shias is a sacred task. I even know that when they came to Orakzai Agency(Tribal Area) and started killing shias, majority of people support them. The situation is now completely different. They have now killed people from almost all sects.
Allah destroy even those who don't raise voice against cruelty. this is what happened with our Pakistan.
People didn't raise their voice against those terrorists at that time, believing that they'll never threat them. They didn't know that those terrorist were brought, feed and trained by our Army and had become wolf that can even bite their master, proven now.
The most disgusting thing is that people in this country still believe that those brutal people are doing everything according to sharia, at least a group of people believe this as they haven't seen the real faces of those bloody bustards. As I grew up in Tribal Area so I have seen everything.
what is the solution to this issue.
If I claim that I know about all these stupid things happening, then I should have a solution to this problem.
They only way these terrorist can be defeated is that we respect each other, each other religion, from religion I mean sects. This isn't difficult to respect each other as We all believe in One God, that Muhammad(SAW) is his last prophet and Quran is his book.
As Allama Iqbal(ra) said
Munfaat ek hai is qom ki nuqsan b ek
ek he sab ka nabi deen b Eman b ek
haram pak b Allah b Quran b ek
Kuch bari bat the hotay jo Muslman b ek
We should accept that shias and sunnis are living in this country and we are brother. We believe in same religion, so what to fight about. We should clearly understand that whoever try to or is trying to seperate us and make us fight each other are our real enemies. As long as they sheeps are present in our society we face the same danger time and again.
So please work for the unity of the nation. If we din't get united we all will destroy as we have already lost our dignity.
Thursday, September 17, 2009
And life goes on
Sometime I feel I have lot of things floating in my mind but still find that I’ve nothing. Well, the sentence looks a bit weird, but I always feel like this. Whenever I read an article, I feel all those were in my mind, but I never thought of those the why author has presented them. Then I feel that I should thought about other things in my mind and put them on paper, but find nothing at all. Again when I start reading another article, same thing revealed.
Yesterday looking through down newspaper I found an interesting article. The fact is I mostly find useful articles in down written by female authors, though sometime I feel women are sluggish, may be lacking the ability of writing and presenting ideas myself make me think like this. I mean to say that I may be dumb myself.
Darn it, come to the article.
I read about the life cycle. When we reach our late twenties, people start telling us that its time to tie a knot. Even friends tell to each other- your are getting old and its time to act, but only few think seriously, or most think seriously but feel that they have no control on all these things.
As a male dominant society, we don’t face much criticism and problems whether we get married sooner or later, but for female it become extremely annoying. They have no other option than to get married before reaching their thirties. People don’t think about their professional life but believe that they are born to get married as soon as possible. For girls prime time of their marriage is early twenties.
Once get married, people start talking about the result of the fusion. There need to be a baby after year or so. The gossip don’t stop here, there need to be another cute baby to accompany the first one after year or two. When both of the children start schooling, people feel that the couple needs to have third one as they have no one in home to play with. Eh, WAF!
Then it comes to their children marriages. They are compelled to start thinking about their children marriages and the cycle goes on.
Yesterday looking through down newspaper I found an interesting article. The fact is I mostly find useful articles in down written by female authors, though sometime I feel women are sluggish, may be lacking the ability of writing and presenting ideas myself make me think like this. I mean to say that I may be dumb myself.
Darn it, come to the article.
I read about the life cycle. When we reach our late twenties, people start telling us that its time to tie a knot. Even friends tell to each other- your are getting old and its time to act, but only few think seriously, or most think seriously but feel that they have no control on all these things.
As a male dominant society, we don’t face much criticism and problems whether we get married sooner or later, but for female it become extremely annoying. They have no other option than to get married before reaching their thirties. People don’t think about their professional life but believe that they are born to get married as soon as possible. For girls prime time of their marriage is early twenties.
Once get married, people start talking about the result of the fusion. There need to be a baby after year or so. The gossip don’t stop here, there need to be another cute baby to accompany the first one after year or two. When both of the children start schooling, people feel that the couple needs to have third one as they have no one in home to play with. Eh, WAF!
Then it comes to their children marriages. They are compelled to start thinking about their children marriages and the cycle goes on.
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
Life, a precious gift of God
Live a life full of joy and amusement. Enjoy every bit of it, coz its only once and never be repeated. Once you leave, you will find no way to get back.
By enjoyment I don't mean make other people sick, behave like there is no one around you. You should give space to people around you and let them enjoy their life the way they wish.
The most crucial thing I've seen in our society is that people don't respect each other. We sometime hate person next to us coz of his religious association, speak language other than us or have different culture etc. This isn't fair. We should respect each other coz we are all human beings. God has given everyone freedom to choose whatever path one likes. God has created heaven and hell, and He will decide everyone’s fate on judgment day. We haven’t been given authority to force anyone to choose what we have chosen for ourselves. We can only give him/her a piece of advice, letting everything else on him, between him and God. He will bear what he chooses for himself, not us.
We should keep in mind that we will be respected only when we respect others. We shouldn't waste our life spreading hate, but preach love instead.
By enjoyment I don't mean make other people sick, behave like there is no one around you. You should give space to people around you and let them enjoy their life the way they wish.
The most crucial thing I've seen in our society is that people don't respect each other. We sometime hate person next to us coz of his religious association, speak language other than us or have different culture etc. This isn't fair. We should respect each other coz we are all human beings. God has given everyone freedom to choose whatever path one likes. God has created heaven and hell, and He will decide everyone’s fate on judgment day. We haven’t been given authority to force anyone to choose what we have chosen for ourselves. We can only give him/her a piece of advice, letting everything else on him, between him and God. He will bear what he chooses for himself, not us.
We should keep in mind that we will be respected only when we respect others. We shouldn't waste our life spreading hate, but preach love instead.
Monday, September 7, 2009
Militants ambush school bus in Orakzai Agency
Sad news in the morning made me sick. Militants ambush school bus, killing four students and injuring several others.
I don't have words to condemn this brutal attack. Those responsible should be brought to justice and sentenced to death. Meanwhile, till the last reports residence has taken firm action against those involved and intense firing is still underway between militants and local residence.
These militants first came to our area for Islamic law (Shariah), but now they are killing innocent civilians. One can easily understand their motives.
These coward militants don't have the courage to face us; they are attacking young school children instead. Few months back, they'd attacked similar school bus, killing 7 innocent students between the age of 11 and 15. Government had done nothing, and no one was arrested. This is second such attack.
The people of our area are now fully aware of what are their motives, and I hope everyone there will dealt with them the way the need to be.
Stand united everyone and kick their asses.
I don't have words to condemn this brutal attack. Those responsible should be brought to justice and sentenced to death. Meanwhile, till the last reports residence has taken firm action against those involved and intense firing is still underway between militants and local residence.
These militants first came to our area for Islamic law (Shariah), but now they are killing innocent civilians. One can easily understand their motives.
These coward militants don't have the courage to face us; they are attacking young school children instead. Few months back, they'd attacked similar school bus, killing 7 innocent students between the age of 11 and 15. Government had done nothing, and no one was arrested. This is second such attack.
The people of our area are now fully aware of what are their motives, and I hope everyone there will dealt with them the way the need to be.
Stand united everyone and kick their asses.
It’s worth giving everything for freedom
We were never slave, we were never ruled. We were living free life as we were born free. We have our own customs. The customs we blindly follow, that are everything for us. Living in tribal areas we decided to affiliate with Pakistan, but condition was that government will never enter its troops in our area. We will defend borders ourselves, we will never bow in front of our enemy.
In the war that was opposed on our country, we fought bluntly. We never thought for a second about our lives. We were of the view that we can sacrifice our lives hundred times for our country, and we did.
But what happened then...
In order to get more aide form allies, we were thrown into sectarian violence; we were used in afghan war in the name of religion. Our homes were leveled because terrorist sneak into our country. Actually they never came themselves, but were created and brought by our government with the help of United States. The aim was to weaken the then supper power USSR and force him to leave Afghanistan. People were brought from all around the world; some were paid, other volunteer. They were given weapons of all sorts. Although most of those weapons were used in the afghan war, but they also spread all over, they were used by tribes against each other. They reach to the hands of criminals. All these things happened with the consent of the country we had decided to get affiliated with.
What a great country, having brilliant politicians and army officers.
Just give us some space and see how much we sacrifice for our country. Just give us freedom from those who were created, and now are your enemies no 1. Just give us some freedom. If you can’t do it, surrender and leave it on us. We will handle with them. We will sacrifice our lives, our children lives, but will get our freedom back.
In the war that was opposed on our country, we fought bluntly. We never thought for a second about our lives. We were of the view that we can sacrifice our lives hundred times for our country, and we did.
But what happened then...
In order to get more aide form allies, we were thrown into sectarian violence; we were used in afghan war in the name of religion. Our homes were leveled because terrorist sneak into our country. Actually they never came themselves, but were created and brought by our government with the help of United States. The aim was to weaken the then supper power USSR and force him to leave Afghanistan. People were brought from all around the world; some were paid, other volunteer. They were given weapons of all sorts. Although most of those weapons were used in the afghan war, but they also spread all over, they were used by tribes against each other. They reach to the hands of criminals. All these things happened with the consent of the country we had decided to get affiliated with.
What a great country, having brilliant politicians and army officers.
Just give us some space and see how much we sacrifice for our country. Just give us freedom from those who were created, and now are your enemies no 1. Just give us some freedom. If you can’t do it, surrender and leave it on us. We will handle with them. We will sacrifice our lives, our children lives, but will get our freedom back.
Our immature media
A hot debate in media is going on these days, whether or not the then premier Nawaz Sharif was on board on military operation in Karachi. Initially the operation was launched against criminals and then extended to achieve certain political goals. As I was young at that time, having no clue of what politics was all about; however it is said that the operation was aimed at weakening MQM, formally Muhajir Qaumi Movement and current Muttahida Qaumi Movement.
Brig (r) Imtiaz who was force to retire from army due to his involvement in wide range of corruption, appeared in media revealing some secret about the operation.
Before his appearance, news of American black water marines and minus one formula etc was circulating in the media. But all these things disappeared from the scene when Brig(r) Imtiaz revelation got strong hold. Private TV channels were trying hard to go ahead of each other.
Whatever the facts are, one thing is, however, clear that those media personal especially hosts are thirsty to brought politicians and retired army personal to their shows and make ground for them to fight as they have no other choice. These media personals have no interest in the problems of the common people; instead they want to collect more money by making their shows popular. They throw a piece of bone between rival and then enjoy their allegation on each other. Eh, how pity.
Brig (r) Imtiaz who was force to retire from army due to his involvement in wide range of corruption, appeared in media revealing some secret about the operation.
Before his appearance, news of American black water marines and minus one formula etc was circulating in the media. But all these things disappeared from the scene when Brig(r) Imtiaz revelation got strong hold. Private TV channels were trying hard to go ahead of each other.
Whatever the facts are, one thing is, however, clear that those media personal especially hosts are thirsty to brought politicians and retired army personal to their shows and make ground for them to fight as they have no other choice. These media personals have no interest in the problems of the common people; instead they want to collect more money by making their shows popular. They throw a piece of bone between rival and then enjoy their allegation on each other. Eh, how pity.
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